Something New

So, this is a whole new thing for me - never blogged before. I'm not sure what my purpose for this media will be... possibly just a place to express all the insanity that goes on in my head since I really don't have any close friends with which to share.

There are three major items concerning me at the moment:

1. My guy, if I can call him that, has stopped talking to me. I've had no response to any call, text or email for over a week - something he promised would never happen. Well, he promised that if we were no longer to be friends for any reason, that he would let me know prior to dropping off the planet. So my question is: how long do we have to be out of touch before I determine that he has, in fact, dropped off the planet?
I fully understand that life gets busy and time quickly goes by before we notice, but is there really such a thing as being too busy for a one sentence text or email to let someone know that you're not ignoring them... or that you are? I'd feel a lot better if he'd just say he's got a lot going on right now and he'll catch me up later, or he's reconsidered his feelings for me, or just to leave him alone for the rest of eternity. I hate not knowing what's going on. And I freely admit that I need to learn to be more patient.

2. I have no real friends. Let me define what I mean by real friends: someone I know I can call any time of day or night to say anything I really need to say. Someone I can trust to tell me the truth, but in the nicest way possible. Someone who knows me well enough that I don't really have to say anything and they just understand me. Maybe that's a lot to ask from someone, but it's no less than I offer as a friend.
And yes, I have had this type of friend in the past. Not a lot of them. And yes, it really hurts when you lose them. I know it takes time to develop this kind of friendship and I refer back to my previous statement about patience.

3. I need a job. A really good job. I've had really rotten luck on the last two. I have skills, I'm a good person, but I just can't seem to find the right place. Maybe there's really no such thing as the right place when it comes to jobs anymore. I want to work. I just want to work somewhere I can use my talents, be compensated fairly for them, and be a little appreciated. It's really seeming more and more like that is way too much to ask.

Yes, those did come out in priority order. Maybe, probably, my priorities are screwed up and that's why I'm having such a hard time in the first place.

If I could detach myself from the feelings and all the complicated details involved in what's written above, but I cared and wanted to help this person , how would I comment on this entry?

1. Stop hanging on to someone who doesn't put you first. You deserve better than that!

2. Be the kind of friend you want to have and the relationships you want will come in time. Yes, you have to be patient.

3. The job thing is tough. Just do your best and quit worrying about the rest.

Simple answers. Wish I could accept that's all it takes.